Today started off SO GOOD! I can’t even describe it. I ran errands, felt like I had a great rest, cleaned the house quite a bit, napped at a good time and it was amazing! And then after dinner and I was putting Ellie to bed.. everything went downhill from there. I had planned on cleaning the kitchen and doing my nails, but Eleanor did NOT want to sleep. She’s been having some serious separation anxiety lately. Usually I can leave her in her bedroom by herself and she’ll put herself to sleep within about 15 minutes. Today it took me 2 hours to finally get her to sleep. It felt like all of the excitement and motivation I had to do the rest of my bedtime routine was gone.
Eventually I got myself to clean up quite a bit. I know this is my perfectionism getting in the way, but I don’t think I should mark a room “clean” on my habit tracker, if there’s still things left out that should obviously be put away. If there’s more than 2 minutes of “work” to be done in a room, I don’t think I should consider it complete. So I’m a bit disappointed that I wasn’t able to finish cleaning the kitchen today, but hopefully I’ve done enough that tomorrow I’ll be able to check kitchen off of my list.
I REALLY wanted to do my nails tonight. I had an idea of what I wanted to do, but since I lost two hours of my free time, I settled for painting them with regular polish. … Only to realize that I hadn’t finished washing all of the dishes. So bye bye nails. Maybe I’ll get to re-do you later. Sigh.
It’s later than I had hoped I’d be in bed. I really had good intentions on what time I’d go to bed tonight, but it just didn’t work out. I think I’ll still be able to get enough sleep tonight. I’m not sure if I’ll fix my nails tomorrow or not, but I’ll try to prioritize sleep over my nails. Hopefully I’ll have more positive feelings tomorrow morning.
February 1, 2021 – I am very thankful for the accomplished and productive morning I had today. It was such a wonderful feeling that I hope to recreate in the future. I haven’t felt such a relaxing and successful morning in a long time.